How I Conquered Intrusive Thoughts: Mastering My Mind

Last night, 🌙 I had a conversation with Gerard about my tendency to fantasize, 💭 particularly regarding my jokes. 🤪 For instance, when I playfully tease a lady, 🙃 I find myself relentlessly checking her social media afterwards. 🫣 It's overwhelmingly consuming; 😕 my jokes quickly turn into a real fixation, 😍 forming a strange cycle that confuses me. 😕 Gerard even called me obsessive. 😶 Can you imagine? 😖

During our conversation, Gerard gave me some tips.

reminding me to understand when my jokes might become hurtful or offensive. It's important to consider the context, especially since the woman I'm teasing is already in a relationship. Although I aim to express my admiration in a playful way, I occasionally find myself becoming too serious, which only fuels the desire to make fantasy into reality.

I usually get really focused on what I like and dive in fully unless someone tells me to stop. Also, I'm picky when it comes to dating and usually only get involved if I feel an instant connection. But Gerard encouraged me to be more open-minded, saying that personal growth often comes from being open and vulnerable. It's a bit scary, given my high standards, but maybe it's time to let go a little and see what happens.

However, Gerard advised me not to apologize for being myself. He understood my quirks from the beginning and never felt I needed to apologize for them. He encouraged me to stay true to myself and embrace my personality because that's who I am, and I should embrace it.

We had an extensive chat that lasted for an hour and a half, which honestly felt quite tedious. I called Gerard just to joke around about the lady I admire who's already in a relationship and ended up getting advice from him. I'm relieved that I was able to open up about my thoughts because otherwise, they might have intensified in the coming days. I'm grateful for the time spent with Gerard; it allowed me to vent my frustrations and emotions, which brought some relief. I suppose I just need to work on staying a bit calmer, huh? Haha!